I just wanted to make sure you know how much I love you. I know every time I tell you, you say “I know mom, I love you too”, but I really hope you understand how deep my love is for you. You may never understand until you have children of your own, but that’s okay because I was the same way. In fact, we are much more alike than you think, and I’m starting to see more and more of our similarities come out in you everyday.
You are my best friend, my favorite girl and my whole world. Every time you crawl in my bed and cuddle with me you make my heart sing and every time you bring me a glass of water or offer to share your cookie with me a little part of me melts. Ever since you were born it’s felt like me and you against the world, two girls who have each other’s back until the very end. I love it when you ask me to blow dry your hair because you want to be like me, even when it may seem like I don’t. I get so emotional when you run out of your room wearing an outfit that looks just like mine for the day that it actually makes me tear up at times, even though you don’t see it. I’m so proud of you for all of the tiniest little accomplishments you make. I’m so honored to be the first person you run to when you want to show off a new talent or drawing you made because it shows me that you know how much I care. It makes me incredibly happy to know that you can come to me for anything and never feel embarrassed, or come to me when you’re shy or speechless and know that I’ll have the perfect words to use in order to speak up for you and say what you’re too scared to say. I know these days wont last forever, one day you’ll be too cool for me or think you know too much on your own to take my advice, but I don’t want to think about it because that makes me sad. Right now I just want to take in every little act you do that shows me how much you care and not think about all the challenging days to come with the onset of adolescence. Not that I won’t still love you to pieces through out all the challenges you might put me through, because you are my baby and I’ll love you unconditionally for eternity no matter how much you may try and push me away.
There’s a new baby coming and although you’ve been amazingly helpful and beyond excited to meet our newest little addition, I still wanted to take a time out to tell you that you’ll still always be the keeper of my heart. It’s wonderful to hear you say how much you love the new baby already and how much you talk about him on a daily basis. It gives me such great pleasure and tremendous pride to watch you rub my belly and sing the new baby songs, and listen to you talk about all the things you can’t wait to teach him once he’s born. But I just wanted to remind you that you will forever be as important to me as the air I breath, and nothing- no one- will ever change that.
I don’t know what I did with all my time before you were born. Life without you seems like a pointless one, you make my days brighter and always push me to do more. Just the thought of not having you around makes me cringe, and I can only hope that one day when you’re older you don’t stray too far from your momma. I know I can’t tell you what to do, but I’m really wishing you’ll stay close by me and continue to always be my best friend in life regardless of our age gape and biological relationship. We have many more years together before that time comes, so don’t worry Giada. Time may fly, these past 4 years certainly has, but you can count on me to be here for you everyday to read you a story and tuck you in at night. I’ll be there personally to wait for you everyday when you get out of school, sit next to you and help you with any of your academic needs, be available to discuss any topic you want and never disallow you to tag along with me wherever I go.
You give my days meaning and bring purpose to my life, and for that I want to thank you. I’m incredibly blessed to be your mother, and wish for you all the best this world has to offer. It’ll be just me and you in a house full of boys pretty soon and sure it will be a whole lot of fun just like you imagined, but for the times when it’s not and you wish you had me all to yourself again, just remember these words I’m writing to you. I will love you forever and like you for always my baby girl, just like our bedtime book reads… as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be.